Ive gota say, the worst feeling in the world is betrayal. Months of living in jealousy unltimately results in feeling betrayed. Logically, it doesnt make sense, but if youve gone through it, you know what im talking about.
It makes me sick, literally: waking up with a hardened heart, empty...having the urge to throw up or punch a wall...ending with an anxiety attack and crying myself to sleep. And repeat this process every day of the week.
All those words unspoken, dying to break out, are gone. Nothing to talk about, nothing to say. Yea sure there are questions you want answered...but you already know the answers. All those times youve made up in the past dont mean anything anymore.
There are no words they can say to make you feel ok...youre tired of hearing the same things over and over.
So what do you do?
Pray.
