So lately, Gods been revealing a LOT of my imperfections to me. But you see, I asked Him to do this. I know Im not the person who I was made to be...I still have to be perfected by Christ. Logically, I dont know why I asked Him to do this...spiritually, I knew it had to be done. I was getting to the point where I thought I was someone good...that I deserved the glory for all of my accomplishments. Simply put, my ego was getting pretty big. Maybe not outwardly, but inwardly I was really proud of how far Ive come and all the good Ive produced. Seriously, it makes me sick thinking about it now.
Usually when I blog, I post my revelation to the problem too. Well, I havent had one yet. In all honesty, I am at a loss of what to do. I dont know what "give Him all the glory" means yet.
Ive been convicted, I feel it everyday. And maybe thats the first step and God will continue to perfect me. It frustrates me not knowing what to do next or how to fix this. Maybe God wants me to wait on Him and realize that Hes the only one that can do the perfecting.
All I desire is the purest heart for the Lord...why is it so hard though? I go strong then the devil throws something in my path to side-track me. I HATE how weak Ive become. Its times like these when I see how much I really do need the Lord. But even the simple task of turning to Him has become a burden.
I need to turn. I need to trust. I need faith. I need strength. I just need Him.
